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so things go badly.
& then i just kinda let things roll,
because by that point i feel like there's
nothing else i can do anyway. and then something
like this happens. like you happens..
and puts me in a good mood.
lets hope it lasts.
<33
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[28 Feb 2005|05:52pm] |
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"I s w e a r that I can go on f o r e v e r again
Please let me know that my one bad day will end
I will go down as your lover, your friend
Give me your lips and with one kiss we begin
Are you afraid of being alone
Cause I am, I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of leaving tonight
Cause I am, I'm lost without you"
soo, jimmy and i broke up.
it was 'muetral'..
kinda funny what you'll agree to to make someone else happy.
it wasn't muetral. i think i'd say anything to make him smile.
later.
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post your best memory with me.
& ill post mine back.
<3333
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your hand in mine,
i wouldn't trade it for the world <3 Jimmy Bradley Eveland.
happy valentines day everyone.
& happy one month babey. xox
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" FEMALES LIE - BUT I GUESS THAT'S JUST WHAT SLUTS DO."
holy cross drama, per usual.
this time it's a little bit more serious though.
best friends dont rat other best friends out.
take the blame for shit you do, you got caught, it's your own damn fault.
why would you bring other people into it? that's real mature, really.
well congrats for losing all your friends, cause frankly, youre a piece of shit to us right now.
whatev. later..
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hmm, so this weekend was pretty good.
Friday *
uhm, after school was day 2 of my 6 hours of driving. it was still scary. not much
to say about it. after that i went back up to the school, hung out with scottie
at the bball game for a little. eventually went home. i dont think i did anything that
night? probably just chillaxed in.
Saturday *
jimmy <3 called early and asked if i wanted to go to his shore house with him and his
fam for the day. so i got up, got ready and they picked me up. the weather was amazing
and LBI was vacant. nobody was around. it was perfect. We just watched movies, went
on the beach, had funnnnnnnnn =o]. went back to his house in mt laurel later. went out to eat -
chillaxed in his basement, and fell asleep. and apparently his parents fell asleep upstairs too. and when they woke up it was like 1:00AM, and they decided to take me home. ha got home and crashed. it was the best day i can remember in a lonng time. <33
Sunday * today
woke up, worked out, chilled. back @ my dad's now, pre-gaming with the pops.
some beer + some wings = nice father daughter bonding. Good to know all it takes
is a few Buds to get my dad and i back to normal. haha alrighttt, going to go get back to that.
ps - New Cell. 609 774 2908. call anytimeeee
PSS - go Pats !
" do you understand?
it's only you, beautiful.
or i don't want anyone.
if i can choose, it's only you. "
jimmy<3
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soo, all last week i had midterms, and i would like to say that they royally blew.
i'm such a procrastinator. like i say i'll study, but i never do. so then i bomb. im a moron.
anywayyy. we got out @ like 10:50 everyday, which was sweet. soooooo - -
Friday.
i took eddie // matt // scottie's bus home to mtl right after school. got to matt's house arounddd
like 11:15ish or something? sat around, goofed up. The boyfriend had a 1/2 day too, so he came over. as did joey p and gab. ended up @ jimmy's house <3 for the rest of the day. after a while peole started peacing. Eddie // Joey // Scottie went to play pond hockey. Gab went home.. and Matthew went to bball. soo it was just me and the boy =o] hung out, tried watching a movie. haha his mom made us dinner and brought home cupcakes. soo we did that. thennnnnn we went to crispan to rent some movie he really wanted to watch. Some war movie. we met up with DEAN there. which was exciting caues i love that kid. soo we all went back to jimmy's, watched it. i fell asleep :oX it wasnt my deal.. i think it was called like Enemy at the Gates. i dont know a little boy got hung, so i didnt like it. around 11 jimmy's dad took me home. car ride home was great. Mr. Eveland is a cool guy. it was good day. wont see the boyfriend again till the weekend probably .. different schools thing is kinda killing me. chyeah.
Saturday
all day, just chillaxed. at night though, that was exciting. me coll berg and miss decided to go sledding up @ suicide in the dark. welllll no one had a sled, so i brought a boogie board. needless to say those shits do not work on the snow. it was pointless. so we juts rolled down the hill, burried coll, you know. then, we got cold. soo instead of walking down the roads back to my house, we cut across the golf course. where we came across a lake covered in snow. so me coll and berg play on the ice, being douchebags. then coll gets smart and says lets just walk around. but berger and i arent that smart, and wanted to cut across. so we're walking.. and then get to a part where there isnt alot of snow. but thinking nothing of it we start walking on it, where my good friend sam goes " Ash, i think we're sinking.. " and i look down and the ice is definately breaking. so we freak, run back to the middle of the ice. and tell coll, and all she says is " I TOLD YOU DOUCHE BAGS" and walks away. best friends for life. ha. soo berg and i finally get off of the ice. walk home, and make hot chocolate and alot of food. (( basting our milk )) << sorry guys im an idiot. haha. they peaced. i chilled. all good.
Sunndayyy
just a chill day pretty sure. watched the game. eagles won, cocky boyfriend rubbed that in for me.
whatever, patriots are going to win the superbowl. went back to my dad's that night. found out i had a school day on monday. SWEET ass.
Monday, today.
woke up, and it was a bad day. dont wanna get into all that. brother ordered me food, and rented me movies. so im just eating and snuggling in my bed watching them. school tomorrow, and then off again on wednesday. =o] sweet.
"And these nights I get high just from breathing.
When I lie here with you, I'm sure that I'm real " Jimmy <3
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THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Ashley.
2. Ashalay
3. asshole
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. snowbaby2788
2. heavenzhunny88 . lol
3. xlick a nut 2
THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. that i can be laid back
2. that sometimes i can have a good temper
3. my weird laugh
THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. my face
2. my boobs
3. how i cant say what i want to at the exact moment i wanna say it
THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. italian
2. irish
3. i dont know?
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. having nobdy
2. serious changes
3. not going through with it.
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. lip gloss
2. orange juice.
3. afterschool nap.
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. boxers
2. his AE sweatshirt i stole :-X
3. pig slippers
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS (at the moment):
1. dashboard
2. TBS
3. maroon 5
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS (at the moment):
1. Dashboard - Hands Down
2. Maroon 5- Sunday Morning
3. Snow Patrol-Run
THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. to not be such a bitch
2. to not be such a bitch
3. to try better in school
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP
1. love - wishful thinking, i know.
2. someone who is chill. and can deal with me, like me me. not a fake me
3. cuddling x's 230598235
TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE
1. snow makes everything better
2. i dont miss being with him
3. i do some things because some people dont want me to.
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX (or same) THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. smile
2. shoulders
3. how they dress
THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. be good enough for my parents
2. losing an argument when i know im right
3. tell him how i really really feel.
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. soccer?
2. drinking?
3. sleeping?
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. get a boost slushie
2. not go to school tomorrow
3. get a phone call <3
THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. something
2. to do with
3. interior design
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. paris
2. bahamas
3. jamaica again
THREE KID'S NAMES:
1. Skyler
2. Avory
3. Tyler for a girl
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. get married, have kids.
2. grow up. aka get mature somewhere along the way
2. swallow my pride and learn to say sorry
THREE WAYS I AM STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY
1. i like sex
2. i <3 sports
3. uhhhhh, i have a penis?
THREE WAYS I AM STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL
1. i care too much about what people think about me
2. i get attatched.
3. i cry over movies.
Three THINGS IVE BEEN CALLED IN THE LAST 24 HOURS
1. a bitch
2. a bitch
3. a good listener. ha.
well, good - that kept me occupied for a good 8 minutes.
now what? <3
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quick note. because im pissed -
yours truly just BOMBED her bio exam. had an hour to take it, and i still
didn't finish. 4 essays, like 100 questions on shit i can't even pronounce
i hate bio. and i hate sister claudette. i hope the convent burns down & she dies.
have fun in heaven bitch, and suck it easy.
that's alllllllllll. xoox
jimmy eveland <33
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for the record :
strept throat blows.
i can't talk, or eat. 2 of my most favoritest things to do.
tell me that isn't gay..
ANDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD ! ! !
the doctor gave me the pink stuff! THAT THICK SHAT.. yeahh
it takes me like 203824 hours to get it down. and i have to hold my nose too.
blah blah blah.. i think im going to go die somewhere now.
later loves.
jimmy eveland <3
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weekend update i suppose..
hmmmmm. Friday *
school was school. i dont really remember anything, so i'm
guessing that nothing significant happened. after school i went
back to my dad's, got my shit, and then to my mom's. my mom
took me driving. where a whole lot of drama happened. too long
to type, IM me if you really wanna know. stopped by coll's, where
she reminded me i had a wrestling match to attend, so i drove home
and got ready fast as shit and head back up to school. all of my lovely
ladies were there. missy did some crazy things per usual. me + howie
yelled like men. you know, the norm. me coll miss berg and case left
the match early to go eat. first we went to Houlihans, but the wait was
so so so so so long. soo then we walked around the mall, and decided
we would go check outside. where we were GOING to go to Chucky Cheese's,
but then decided to pull a strong Fridays. We got seated right away. sweet ass =o]
ate...alot. talked...alot. cried even. good times. after that they dropped me off..
i talked to jimmy <3 for quite sometime, then crashedd.
Saturday *
woke up arounnddd 11? got ready, headed over to Jim's around 1.
tooooooo toooo tooo tooo tooooo much detail throughout the day.
not even going to try and explain.
to make a long long long story short, i like him alot.
anddd i had alot of fun. got picked up from his house around 11 - 11:30
good night. heart him <3
Sunday *
it was a sunday. nothing important. i hate sundays.
im done. i dont like updating .especially the pointless ones, i.e ; the one i just did.
this weekend is JENNA BABYS birrthhdaayy. im pumppeedd :o]
<33333
rvtladies ; reunion soon? <3
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WHO'S HAPPY?!
assssshhhhhllllleeeeyyyy
iiiiiisssss ssssoooooo
hhhhaaapppppppyyyyyy!!
he is soooooooooo hawt.
are we telling anyone what happened? that she isn't .
<3 =o]
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im scared that im going to end up alone, im scared that im always going to be somebodys friend, or just one of the guys, or only their confident, never quite somebody's everythng. im scared that all of those times driving in your truck were my only chances. chances to tell you everything that i wanted to say. i never did though in fear of you realizing that this meant so much more to me than it does to you. im scared that youre going to take her to those places. those places where we were found so tangled in passion. where fingerprints were made in fogged up windows. and im scared that your goodbye kisses are going to be as long as ours were. mostly im scared im never going to find a guy that i love as much as i love you
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MERRY CHRISTMAS LOVES !!!
hm, i wasn't really excited for christmas. up until this morning.
well i woke up feeling like trash. and i was in a horrible mood
but i came to my dad's, and opened all my gifts. all good stuff, but like nothing
too 'exciting'.. and then he handed me this folded piece of paper that read :
" This is an IOU. you can use it to go car shopping with your father whenever you please "
wooooooo!!!! im so pumped! me car shopping? hell effing yes.
now im about to do our christmas brunch nonsense.
then watch finding nemo about 209843032 times.
and probably end up talking to the boyfriend sometime later <3
have a good one kids =o]
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10 Random Things About Me
10. i didnt have a fantastic childhood
09. my eyes change colors w// my mood
08. i sing extremely loud in the shower
07. i like when my brother sleeps with his TV on, so i know he's awake. helps me sleep better
06. i used to think that i was going to marry tyler progin
05. i sleep with an eeyore stuffed animal he bought me
04. i can be the ditziest person in the entire world
03. i hate my reflection in mirrors
02. i could stand in the rain for hours
01. id pick a real, reall hug over anything anyday
9 Places Ive Visited
09. jamaica
08. california
07. disney land and world
06. florida
05. st lucia
04. north carolina
03. south carolina
02. chicago
01. every square inch of riverton
8 Things I Want To Do Before I Die
08. get married
07. have 2 or 3 kids
06. go to paris
05. have someone fall in love with me
04. feel satisfied with my life
03. tell my grandchildren stories of my childhood
02. wake up next to him
01. do something completely stupid, and spontaneous.
7 Ways To Win My Heart
07. dont be afraid to tell me exactly how you feel
06. take me for me. at my highs and my lows.
05. don't play games.
04. hold doors for me. kiss me goodnight.
03. know what you could say, but not necessarily saying it.
02. dont change infront of your friends
01. if you happen to love me. tell me. but make sure you mean it.
6 Things I Believe In
06. destiny
05. everything happens for a reason
04. that you dont have to be in love, to have your heart broken
03. death
02. ghosts
01. love.
5 Things I'm Afraid Of
05. needles
04. clowns
03. falling for him..again
02. ET
01. forgetting.
4 of My Favorite Items in My Bedroom
04. my pictures
03. old notes
02. my stuffed animals
01. mt misery award
3 Things I Do Everyday
03. crack up.
02. freak out on someone
01. think about him
2 Things I Am Trying Not to Do Right Now
02. homework
01. worry about something that's already happened.
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hmm, quickish update.
Friday
hmm, there were a whole lot of different plans going around during school. bowling // ice skating .. blah blah blah. i ended up @ coll's around 5.. missy was already there. we just bummed around, miss re-organized coll's crawl space. and let me tell you my group of friends are the biggest alcoholics ive ever met. we are disgusting. i love us. soo a little later shay and liz showed up. we were off and on, on the phone w// howard, when we finally decided to go christmas shopping =o] that was funn. cherry hill was infested with holy cross kids. it was kinda gross. but we saw jenn case berg and mcconnell, hotties <3 hm, went home. did nothing really i dont think? maybe watched a few movies, per usual. over all a good night with the girls.
" i thought it was Kid Rock, but then i saw the black lipstick.. " hahahah !
Saturday
uhm, woke up real early. coll was up early too so we were going to go for a breakfast date, but then the gay coffee shop was closing in like 30min. so not enough time, so i went back to sleep <3 .. woke up around like 2:30ish and went online. Coll wanted to go get our eyebrows done and such, soo we did. i sat in the little chink boys seat, and he yelled at me. in very bad english might i add. effing 3 year old . Mr Cawley took us back to coll's .. we ate. watched the food network, haha. arounddd like 5[?] amanda and tony showed up..so coll and i got ready pretty fast, im not going to lie i was pretty proud of us, and then peaced. Mama Cawley took us to go get brenden, then to shay baby's. Nick was there when we got there, as was lizzzzy. It was pretty much a chill night. watched Unbreakable, [ which i fell asleep during.. oh well ] Bruce Willis is still really hawt. Nick wasn't feeling very well =o/ so he ended up being upstairs for a while trying to feel better i guess. He finally came down, and woke me up. It got better after that =o] although, nicholas cocozza and brenden foster need to chillax with the fighting. you both lost, and it didnt impress colleen or i at all. nice try though boys <3 boys left, girls had an amazing sleep over. " no no wait. i wasnt ready, go back.. alright ready now! " "guys dont worry, ive got a pocket knife in the other room.. " " alright im going over here now .. ASH WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU THAT WAS YOUR CUE " " no, i dont have any of those .. " i love you girls far too much. breakfast was a m a z i n g . and i have a crush on mr copeland. mm.
Sunday .. today
didnt really do anything. it was just a much needed chill day. my brother picked me up around 5:45 and took me back to my dads. blehh. ate dinner, took a shower. i might go watch Dodgeball soon, although it looks completely stupid. hmm, we have off wednesday this week. and then i have my sophmore retreat friday, which is like 1/2 day or some nonsense. and then CHRISTMAS BREAK STARTS BABY!! wooo going to be crazzy. im super pumped.
alright, i think im done.. comments? i dont even know if anyone reads this anymore =oX
<33
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okay, so the month of november completely sucked for yours truly.
quite possibly the worst month of my entire life.
[[ Meg was telling me that she could tell i was breaking down in health today.. heh.]]
soo let me tell you i am completely pumped for december!
it's going to be perfect. i know it. and im super excited.
hmm, i guess i was just letting everyone know, and to be prepared for an amazing month.
ps, happy one year ann. to Cara Elizabeth and Cohen. congrats you two, i'm really happy fot you. You two are obviously in love, and that's amazing. I hope you two last foreverrrrr. (im jealouussss =o] ) < - i know it's not till dec. 1st, but just incase i forget to update tomorrow, you know how that goes <3 xo
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01. I have a cell phone. - effer was stolen
02. I'm obsessed with high heels.
03. I'm the youngest child.
04. I am a shopoholic.
05. I love hoop earrings.
06. I am a libra.
07. I love to party.
09. I can't live without lip gloss.
10. I can't live without music.
11. I lived in Purgatory for 3 months.
12. I spend money I have.
13. I'll be in college forever.
14. I've seen Jason Mraz.
15. I get annoyed easily.
16. I eventually want kids.
17. I like the Backstreet Boys..hah
18. I have more than a couple of horrible memories.
19. I am addicted to Lizzie McGuire.
20. I am a person.
21. My first kiss was when I was 18.
22. I start film school in February.
23. I love taking pictures.
24. I hate girls who are fake.
25. I can be mean when I want to.
26. My dreams are bizarre.
27. One of my close friends is gay.
28. I have way too many purses.
29. I've seen 'Fight Club' at least 45 times.
30. I usually dress how I feel that day.
31. I love 'Sex and the City'!
32. Sometimes I cry for almost no reason.
33. I hate when people are late.
34. I procrastinate.
35. I love winter.
36. I have too many clothes for my closet/dresser.
37. I love to sleep.
38. I wish I were smarter.
39. I'm afraid of flying.
40. I hate drama.
41. I am addicted to 'The O.C.'
42. I like my hair.
43. I never fight with my parents.
44. I love the beach.
45. I have never had the chicken pox.
46. I'm excited for the future.
47. I can't control my emotions.
48. I can't wait till New Year's.
49. I love the show 'Rich Girls'.
50. I love my friends.
51. Christmas is my favorite holiday.
52. I can be very insecure sometimes.
53. I have never broken a bone.
54. I hate/dislike racist people.
55. I hate my computer.
56. I love guys that play the guitar.
57. I state the obvious.
58. I'm generally a happy person.
59. I love to dance.
61. I hate cleaning my room.
62. I tend to get jealous very easily.
63. I love cute underwear.
64. I love John Mayer.
65. I cry when I see animals/people getting hurt/abused.
66. I want to go to Greece.
67. I don't like to study for tests.
68. I love God. hmm, yeah i do.
69. I am too forgiving.
70. i have blue eyes
71. I love high school
72. I have a talent of sweet-talking my way out of things.
73. I'm a daddy's girl.
74. I love kisses.
75. I love the color pink.
76. I love to sew.
77. I have green eyes.
78. I love the Olsen Twins.
79. I play soccer.
80. I become stressed easily.
81. I hate liars.
82. I like comfy sweatpants.
83. Paul Walker is my dream guy.
84. I love the smell of asphalt after it's rained.
85. I love my family.
86. I hate needles.
87. I am a perfectionist.
88. I always wanted to learn to play the drums.
90. I like being with large groups of people.
91. I would love to have my own fashion line.
92. I am quite selfish.
93. I still act like a little kid.
94. Above all, I despise dishonesty.
95. I love pictures.
96. I love music.
97. I wish I were more motivated when it comes to school.
98. I love getting stuff in the mail.
99. I have problems letting go of people.
100. I hate the feeling of being alone.
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